Unequally Yoked

I have forced the issue.

I usually don't like to bother people if I think they may be trying to decide an issue that I wouldn't approve of or would be detrimental to my own personal goals. It is the one little secret of wisdom to lasting longer.
It is anomalous to the idea of attacking the ball so to speak. But in the case of my marriage I realized that this up in the air thing was too much.

My wife has been confused and that confusion tries to spill over to me. I like a clear concise thought not confusion. I am not afraid to tell people if they are incorrect. I am afraid of not telling them. I want people to be able to make truthful and honest choices not grayed out choices. It lends to clear air and clean clear life based on rock solid data. My wife is the opposite and a microcosm of what is incorrect with this nation as a whole. In an effort to be nice this country has erroneously picked lying over the truth, muddying up the water of making good decisions.

In light of this I told my wife I could not live in a situation where I can't but help feel or wonder when the other shoe will drop. I have lived like this for 6 years and it is too much for me. It tries me, draws me away from God. I will sacrifice all to stay near to God. My personal 1 on 1 relationship with God is the most important thing on earth to me. No one person or thing will supplant God in my life. I would rather die than not be close to him. It is impossible for me not to talk about him and His Kingdom and His Goodness and His Judgement and His Plans that I know of. I desire it, long for it, feed on it. It is the only thing in my life where I even begin to feel truly alive. I live by the word and if need be I shall die by the word.

Sound familiar? In the word it is written this way.


Rev 19:21 And the remnant were slain with the sword of him that sat upon the horse, which sword proceeded out of his mouth: and all the fowls were filled with their flesh.


Rev 19:15 And out of his mouth goeth a sharp sword, that with it he should smite the nations: and he shall rule them with a rod of iron: and he treadeth the winepress of the fierceness and wrath of Almighty God.


Mat 4:4 But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.

I live and die by God's word. I 'do' live at God's behest and I shall die at God's behest. And there is no other course for me. I serve him at his leisure and not what anyone else thinks or says. NOT WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS OR SAYS, OR FEELS IN THERE COMPROMISED, CORRUPTED HEARTS! NOBODIES!

I asked her when she is leaving. She has secretly applied to section 8 housing and has been going to secular counseling for her bi-polar disease. She can't decide between service to God and the materialistic world. The two are incompatible. You can have stuff but you can't worship or let your stuff become more important to you than God. My wife and her cares for the world drown out God in her life and those cares spill over on to me. I can't have that happening to me. I won't let that happen to me.

In this day and age where by my reckoning we have only 3 years and 5 months left until the big sweat; That is when I say the world can begin to sweat over when God's ball will drop and the tribulation begins, There is no more time to be working just for today. You have to start thinking about your eternities. Frittering your future away is not an option. My wife ruining our household finances just because she can't control her emotional need to get something is just steps away from that sort of frittering I am talking about. You can't go that way purposely or just because you can't control yourselves. You may have to fight to drop your love of things of this earth but I assure you it is a fight you can win because the almighty has given you all the power to win that victory and yet the victory and credit and Glory MUST be given to God. If you sin and forget to give God the credit I assure you that the Holy Spirit will remind you of the oversight. gently quietly and lovingly. But you must respond eventually to this one credo. God deserves the payment of the credit for any success that you have or think you have in your lives and you Must respond to his gentle urgings. You must if you want to have the closest possible relationship with him. You people keep yourselves away from God by doing any other thing.

The sound bite.

She's out and My Father reigns supreme in my life Jesus is supreme in me.

Time and time again over the last 30 years Jesus has proven to those around me; much to the chagrin of my friends, family, and acquaintances, Jesus; King of Kings and Lord of Lords, has won out. He wins by the love that I carry with me. He wins by the FACT that I do no evil. He wins by me seeking to do GOOD in this condemned world. He wins by me looking to do Good for a world that apparently has only death in mind for me. HE wins by me knowing that he is truly the only sole ruler of me. He becomes me. I do not become him and I surely do not become more like him. As good as I am or want to be I always am aware of how corrupt my flesh is and that there is no way that I, my person......body mind or sole.......is worthy of his presence yet he still in his grace makes his abode with me.......Jesus wins........The world cannot make me sorry. Though I be sorrowful; it is at the world's sin, and the very fact that of this world not all are chosen to enter in to the Kingdom of Heaven. I wish I could change it for all but I am unable to. It would be ludicrous to try to fight the Will of God in this matter anyway. I get the blessing of wanting this for all and the curse of knowing that it ends up being an unrequited want. You can say I am left wanting in this hope. It hurts........

Jesus wins.