Suicidal

HO-Kay. My wife tells me last night that she has been having thoughts of suicide.

I unloaded the 12 gage and hid it and all the ammo I could find. As soon as I can find the case for it I am going to lock it up in storage.

The last thing I want to walk into....is finding her like that.

And that is another thing I need to list in the previous entry concerning bi-polar disease.

Insane

Bi-Polar disease is a form of insanity and my wife is insane. There is absolutely no way in earth to cure this disease and the psychiatric community only knows how to mask the symptoms.
It upsets me to realize that the last two wives both have the disease.

Some of the outward symptoms are

Inability to prioritize,
Inability to make decisions,
Destructive behavior patterns,
Inability to keep a job,

Inability to manage money,
Destructivly obsessive traits,
Destructive compulsive traits,
Suicidal tendencies,

My personal experience with these people who have this disease is that they are paranoid, fearful, pathological liars, manipulative, controlling vindictive and vengeful along with a plethora of other problems. They cannot be reasoned with in any way. Once they have their minds made up they will do whatever they have decided no matter the consequences.

For instance Karen decided to keep the household income to her self thinking that section 8 housing would be instantly available in spite of the fact that we could have been evicted in 30 days from our home and she would have ended up in a homeless shelter.

Karen has told me that she knows that she has these problems and has prayed about them to Jesus often but it take Faith that these things will be overcome both in effort by oneself and that God will be there to strengthen you in the matter. She does not have the faith to go along with the prayers. No faith, no answers to prayer. She is praying faithless prayers or worse, making prayers that she does not want answered, a trait that may make Jesus mad. Not a good thing to do. I know just ask me.

I can't take her out there with me because her commitment to Jesus is far less than is needed to just jaunt off and do something for Jesus such as maybe help build a home with habitat for humanity or serve up free hot dogs on the freeway. It takes a measure of faith to just put yourself in a position when you may not know where your next meal is coming from. Faith that at this time she doesn't have. We could get out there with meager resources and she could have one of her patent panic attacks and burn up what little money we had just to get her someplace she would feel safe.

She doesn't realize that it is the Holy spirit convicting her of her sins and instead is writing her guilt off as depression.

Most of them have been victimized.

There is a cure though.

Jesus Christ.

Wifes getting cold feet

She is worried about her dog.

I told her she is putting her dog before Jesus and how was she going to answer for that in that day.

No Smell

None yesterday either.

I am astonished

I told my wife that I was not going to be staying here after she left.
I'm movin on. I'll soon be gone.( Old Hank Snow song)

Jesus says.

Mat 19:29

And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name's sake, shall receive a hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life.

For those of you who have not done such a thing as this or think it is foolhardy. Don't be a writin it off as some kind of mid-life crises. I have done this before, ten years ago, living mostly out of my car for 14 months before God stilled me. I am fully aware of the choice that I make. I do this because this is what is in my heart to do and for no other reason. I am not completely animated; that is, I am not truly living unless I am talking about God, Jesus, and His Kingdom of Love, Light, Joy, and Peace. I have to do this or I die inside no less. The worst is I start to look like I am dieing on the outside, like some kind of death warmed over. You know.........like the pictures in my archives.

I think that in a couple of days that my Internet service will be cut so just in case I don't find my way back to the Blogosphere..............It's been real.

God Bless and remember,

God is always in total control so don't sweat it.

No Smell

Something unexpected

Something New and unexpected.

Karen has committed to go with me.

I can not turn down the request of another to serve God.

No matter what I think of what Karen or any of the things she has done all of those things are set aside and must be forgotten.

I Love Jesus and I Will forgive.

I am grateful because I will not be going alone.

I know that what we are about to do is unorthodox if thought of in today's concerns about preparations that we think we need to make but then the apostles went out in their day similarly unprepared. They went out knowing that the way was already made.

We go out knowing that the way is already made.

No stink today

The yellow light is now on!!!!

Last night at about midnight I turned the TV off and as I went around the house turning off lights preparing to go to bed, I noticed that the TV was still on in my wife's bedroom the door was cracked and so I peeked in. She was sleeping so I snuck in and turned the TV off. I stopped in my tracks because of the smell.
THERE IT WAS. That freaking smell of what I think is dope. In particular CRACK.

Between the time I had been in there; 8-9 o'clock (no smell)and the time I had turned off the TV(smell) she done something.

I would be willing to bet that if I had the sheriff bring the drug dogs in here I might get some satisfaction in seeing her out of here in cuffs or would I? No matter how mad I am at the prospect I still have not directly observed the miss deed and then there is the hard choice to have someone whom I have considered beloved even if it is in the past. So I will wait until I have absolute confirmation lest I do something undeniably stupid. After all there could be some completely logical explanation.

Of course after the way that this same dept. treated me last week I don't know if I trust them so maybe I should take it to the next couple of levels. Do a little bypass and some sideways movement to get some honest cops in here to nab her. But you and I will have to wait. Have to.

Civilization

To be edited.


Civilisation is not dependant upon the law.

All nations have laws and some of them enforce their laws upon penalty of death even for the most minor infraction. Unfortunately that does not guarantee civilized behavior. In fact the truth is that most of the time that type of enforcement leads to de-civilisation.

The people of a nation will do what the example of the government and the courts so set.
The United States is no different. The United states is not heading towards a more civilized and safe society but a more lawless and uncivilized society. The people are following the example set by the government and law enforcement and the courts. If the law is enforced by lawless lawmen(an oxymoron)who take it upon themselves to be judge and jury; lying (an uncivilized behavior pattern), and using cruel and unusual punishment methods(draconian and barbaric) that cause permanent incapacitation or death then the people will take that as an example and do the same. This must truly confound social scientists which I don't understand considering that the results of their social manipulations in the U.S. have lead to more lawlessness not less. A compromise between true peaceful civilization and a draconian nation is only a step towards a draconian civilization. If it is a draconian society the people want then the people will do what they have to do to get draconian. Problem is I keep hearing that that is not what the people want. Unfortunately unless people change there minds and stop blindly following their instincts feelings or the beliefs of the educated who are leading the masses to de-civilization through their willing and blind lackeys who put on a uniform, badge, and gun and say it is the law because I say it is the law, Not their call, never the less it will be a poverty enslaved nation that they receive and it will be a nation of their choosing.

In a short answer to why we have more crime. Cops are moving America to de-civilization by their uncivilized behavior. And the general American Public are willingly following being led by the blindness of cops narrow views. The American Public is indeed the blind following the blind.

Civilization is in the hearts and minds of the people and what is Truly in the hearts and minds of the people they will do.

You may note that I am not giving you any ideas on how to improve the situation. Previously I was obsessive about civilization remaining civilized. I am now cheering on the onset of de-civilisation and am now not interested in helping anyone figure out how to avoid it.

Yet I have a story.

There is a bridge over a chasm and on the bridge were all the people. It was hot and when the people looked on the up-river side of the bridge the water was smooth and gentle. the water is calling out to the people to jump in and cool off. Take a drink I will quench your thirst. there is no way off of the bridge the people knew so some so thirsty and hot jumped in thinking that they would be well. That they could not see for did not look on the other side of the bridge the water was a raging boiling rapid. for under the bridge unbeknown to the people on the bridge their was a tall water fall. The people who jumped in were swept over the fall and were now caught and screaming for help. Yet the people on the bridge were wise and stood there only able to watch in horror exclaiming oh my don't jump off into the water for you will surely drown.
The years and the decades passed and and soon it was a century but before the second century was past and With each new generation in spite of the warnings of the previous generation some jumped in the water And the people could only say we cannot save them only say do do what they do or you will die.

All was well until one day a terrible disease came to the people of the bridge and many of their children were born blind Yet not all the children were blind. Yet the people of the bridge did not fail to warn their new children of the raging water and not to jump in. It was still hot. The people were thirsty but there was no way to receive water from the river. They could only drink what fell from Heaven. Yet the blind ones began to complain and they began to clamor that their thirst was unbearable. Then a second plague came along and made many of the people deaf Yet not all the people were made deaf. Soon children were being born some deaf and some blind and some deaf and blind Yet not all the people were born blind or deaf or blind and deaf. The deaf but not blind could see the gentle water. The blind but not deaf could hear the roaring rapids. The blind and deaf could only smell the sweet scent of water. So the deaf and the deaf and blind began to argue with the blind and those who could hear and see that they should jump in the water and cool off and drink till their fill for those who could see and hear and the blind must surely be crazy. Their was no roiling water down there. Soon they began to war and it was a terrible war many were killed but that was not the worst for the deaf who could see and the blind who could hear began to jump into the water but not all would jump. Immediately they began to scream for help and those who could see hear and the deaf who could see ran to the other side of the bridge and to their horror they could see and hear that the people who had jumped were going to die. Try as they might no matter what they thought they could not find a way to save the people who had jumped into the bridge. The people felt bad and the people felt guilty and the people felt sad and the people felt afraid and the people felt they had failed. So the people who thought if we make life guards who can see and hear and teach them how to swim up here on the bridge they will be strong and brave and jump in the water and swim and save the people who are dieing. so the people did make of themselves lifeguards and gave unto them the power also to keep people from jumping in but also the authority to save if they failed to save them from jumping. But the deaf and blind were too numerous and the lifeguards could not stem the tide of the foolish jumping in the river to get themselves from the heat. So the lifeguards bravely jumped in after the foolish and though they were strong swimmers many were not strong enough and many lifeguards were lost. And though they were brave soon nearly all of the lifeguards were lost but a few were wise and did not jump in the river and they lived.
And just when it was worst another plague struck. and this plague was the worst of all for it mad the children dumb but not all were made dumb. Now there were children being born who were deaf dumb blind and deaf and dumb and blind and deaf dumb and deaf blind and dumb blind but not all were afflicted but the number of those who could see and here and tell were dwindling dwindling dwindling. Soon though those who could see and hear and tell turned from the horror of the screams and refused to tell. some who could see and here and tell gave up hope and jumped in the river yet they uttered not a sound.

And all that was left alive were but a remnant of people who could stand the heat and they drank of the water from Heaven and thanked God for his loving kindness and mercy.
And they lived to tell the story of remembrance until one day angels from above came down and lifted them up to Heaven.
And they drank the water from Heaven and thirsted no more nor did they feel the sun upon their head yet their was light that shown everywhere and they thanked God for his loving kindness and mercy.
And Truly lived forever more.

No God, No civilization.

My wife is excused if she so desires to leave. But I will not excuse her following the cops example to de-civilization.

Lets do a little math

Over the last five years I have been trying to figure out what my wife has been spending money on.

One word comes to mind, and it is not alcohol. She doesn't drink. Dope.

If I got the numbers right there is about $20000.00 dollars unacounted for in our budget. You don't know how many times I have come home and thought my house smelled like an animal lived here.

Dope.

I think I will have the police come back here with their drug dog. If she has any on her I will gladly have her stupid ass thrown in jail.
Meth amphetamine or crack I bet.
5:52 AM

Ok I was restless last night so I went down to the local gas station and started talking to the clerk there and she asked me if Karen was eating a lot of sweets? I said yeah she is bringing in bags of sweets and junk food and they're just vaporizing. I mean that she is consuming a lot of them. Fast. She said that the hard drugs make a person rave for sweets.

We talked some more and I told her about the incredible animal smell in my house last year. She said that was marijuana dipped in some other drug and they called it skunk. I also told her about the extraordinary ammonia smell we had sometimes. She said that was probably crack.

I told her I didn't have those smells in my house this year but that she was taking 3 and 4 hour trips. She said that she was probably going down to Perry Ga to pick up the drugs and then going over to a friends house and doing them. Letting herself come down a little before coming home and buying the junk food to satiate her now raving hunger.
And low and behold a Warner robins police officer walks in a so I said how about we ask this guy? So I did. I asked him what could I do if I suspected my wife of doing drugs.
"He said call the police cuz". He looked like he was kind of tired and tired of answering those kind of questions(they probably get asked them all the time). He shrugged his shoulder when I told him maybe get a a drug dog in there but then I remembered she probably doesn't have anything in the house since I just learned that she was probably doing them at someone Else's place.

It now makes a whole lot more sense about why she won't tell me where she is getting some money. She said I would just get mad at them. Also why the pathological lying. I wonder if she is being coerced or blackmailed. I bet she is. Whoops did I catch yas in the act.

Let's see now.........what would be her little conundrum if she borrowed money from a fellow drug addict or drug dealer or worse took some drugs from them on loan.

This is starting to get into the holy crap area. Is it delusional or just hopeful?

Again she told me

I didn't get my check this week.

I said why are you telling me this?

Should I believe her? NO!

She has now collected $2600.00 dollars and with no overhead except gas and food she does not have enough money to find another place to stay.

Again I ask. What is she doing with the money?????????????

Walmart is only 4 blocks away but today she spent 2 and 1/2 hours there getting 20 dollars worth of stuff.

NOT!

I will continue to not remit her sins.

DOPE!

I lost in a way

I told that liar to not make a lie in my household. If she did I was going to take the door off of her room so I could make sure that if she was on the phone or not. If she is talking she is trying to twist everything. She called the cops.

So here I am facing 4 cops( they must think I am public enemy NO 1 or as dangerous as they come or something)being told that in my own house I am not allowed to take off a door because it is criminal damage. "In my own house?", I said. They didn't whip out a code book but they said it was. Of course I got threatened if I didn't put it back on. So I did. Then as I was putting the door on one of the deputies said that blah blah "what do you think if I went in front of the judge" and said this and you said that(can't quite remember) who do you think he would believe. I stopped what I was doing and looked him right in the eye and said you can't put on that blue uniform and go throwing your weight around like that. He says it doesn't matter so I told him again I didn't care what the deal was he could not do that. To you men in blue you need to remember for sure one thing. God puts men in position of judgement and authority over peoples and cops are not sitting behind the bench. If God put the brother of former senator Sam Nun behind the bench and a cop twists the truth to get what he wants just because he THINKS he is right You might as well have done it in front of God. You need to ask yourself would you do that if the judge was God. You need to ask yourselves if you were in front of the throne of God which you might as well be would you say to God what he just said to me. If you said yes then you would definitely be a liar and GOD...HATES BEING LIED TO DIRECTLY. Want to be blessed by God, DON'T LIE TO HIM.
Jesus puts it this way "Have ye not heard ye are GODS"? Cops ain't God nor are the judges but you can bet your blue uniform that HE is right there with the judge. And I guarantee you he heard your lies and even if you ask him to forgive you which he will, the memory of your lie is going to remain with all the people that were there. And God who IS omniscient is going to be wondering "Why are all these people remembering this this way but the ruling went that way"He will tweak you to see if you indeed did lie and guess what. Trouble, trouble, trouble. You ever wonder why some of your cop friens have nothing but trouble. Lieing to God right there in the court room.
The man hung his head and walked away but funny thing he goes over to the liar and says"is he always like this"?
She said yes. For the whole 6 years? She said yes.
Eventually I was able to describe the reason for our problems and some of the guys suddenly began to see a picture that was not what they thought they were going to find when they got here. They cut me some slack and one agreed He would be mad too if the same thing was happening. Of course maybe he was playing the part of the empathizer. Never the less I grant him sincerity. He had no mask. That is very good. The kind of guy that needs no mask to hide the bullshit of his life. Unlike the one who took the lead. And the two goats who first walked into my house. They have an agenda. Doesn't matter what they say I will not remit their sins. In other words the more they lie the more they will skank. Watch them. In a few months the filth will begin to show through their skin like dirt they can't wash off and they can also answer to God in that day of reckoning. I recomend in that day you answer that you were an unprofitable servant. Any other will just get God mad.
One of them told me that under the circumstances I might be able to have her evicted. WOW! If only I could. I want her out of here. I am not going to compromise with a pathological liar. That is complete mud. I am not going to compromise with a person who is morally bankrupt either.

In a way I won. I did not get arrested even though I was petulant. And the officers told her it was time for her to get out. And told her to leave me alone. YAYA! I cut my phone off and I am waiting for her to cancel her Internet so I can get my own.




I will not remit her sins. She can explain this all to God in that day.

I will not be living in this town much longer and I will be dusting my shoes off at the gates. Maybe I won't but you better hope I do because if I don't that means I will be reserving the right to tell the rest of the world why Middle Ga is a bad investment for the rest of my life. To understand what I am saying you need to read in the Gospel where it says what happens to a city when a servant of God does that. Not Good I assure you. No amount of praying will save this area in that day if I decide to condemn in that way. Or like I said I could just tell my contacts this is a bad place to be.

Any way the real reason I opened up a new entry is because when I have some trouble I take my bible open it and ask god for a word. the very first thing my eye fell upon was:


Jer 5:26 For among my people are found wicked men: they lay wait, as he that setteth snares; they set a trap, they catch men.
Jer 5:27 As a cage is full of birds, so are their houses full of deceit: therefore they are become great, and waxen rich.
Jer 5:28 They are waxen fat, they shine: yea, they overpass the deeds of the wicked: they judge not the cause, the cause of the fatherless, yet they prosper; and the right of the needy do they not judge.
Jer 5:29 Shall I not visit for these things? saith the LORD: shall not my soul be avenged on such a nation as this?

Confirmation

This morning I heard my wife on the telephone saying "$81.00. No I won't get my check until Saturday".

Right now I am unemployed(thanks to her) and our household is(was) dependant upon her check but she saw fit to change the address or way that she is receiving her check and then told me that she wasn't getting a check. Boldly she told me this. She has carried this lie on for more than a month.

I turned into a ranting maniac.

This event coupled with her seeking section 8 housing tells me that she has been prepping her escape. She also told me that she prayed that she did not want our marriage to end. She wanted our marriage to be. You know,? If you tell God you want your marriage and then go out and prepare for the opposite what do you think God is going to do to you for lying to him? He will drive you out and away from him....

Her efforts are not equalling her mouth. She is saying one thing and doing another. I have yet to hear that she has committed to an affair but I am not waiting for pure evidence. Her lying to me is enough for me to run her off.

I told her she has two choices. Put her check in my hand(fat chance)and call it rent or use it to get another place to live. If she does none of these things I will cease to pay house and lot and wait till the eviction notice comes and drive her out that way.

Won't hurt my credit (don't ask why it is just the way God set me up in this place) and I will be rid of a dangerous woman.
Why would I say she is a dangerous woman? Because she has torn down her house. Because of the way that she has acted she has literally tried to put us out in the street. Worse. She has tried to provide for herself a safety net and put just me on the street.

That is soooo evil as to literally try and kill me. Imagine if I was made to retire to my car without airconditioningI(it has been in the 100'sF hear in middle GA) with no reliable place to get relief. I know....that is the extreme yet it is the lot she tried to set for me. Her behavior is murderous. She murdered our marriage and now she was trying to jump a ship that wasn't sinking all the while screaming(metaphorically)that it was, convincing others that it was, and they in turn were jumping into the cold deep to their deaths(metaphorically), trying to cover the tracks she made in the process of her matricide.

For what it is worth I had an out. I saw the inklings back in February. And set my own rescue net. One in tune with our co-goals. If I was right I wouldn't be left out in the heat. If I was wrong we would have even a stronger financial position. Much to my incredible dismay I was right.

She has got to go!

Since I chewed her butt this morning she has been out of the house since 10 am. I wonder where she went???

HMMMMM.

God is in control.

No man

Joh 10:17 Therefore doth my Father love me, because I lay down my life, that I might take it again.
Joh 10:18 No man taketh it from me, but I lay it down of myself. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again. This commandment have I received of my Father.

Notice in these verses Jesus does not say that it was man's sin that killed him. If any preacher says that their sin's killed Jesus can their sins be forgiven them? I say that would be a blaspheme; a forgivable blaspheme but a blaspheme never the less. You would be self forgiving yourselves and You cannot save yourselves. If Jesus says that you could not have taken his life then how is it that your sins could have killed him as well?
They could not have.

The very next principle I am about to speak goes totally against what all preachers have been preaching today that I have ever heard, but there can be no other answer. Nowhere in the word do I read that God is in partial control, therefore he is in total control or in no control. Which is it. There is no in between.

If your God is in partial control then your God is not God.

My God is in total control period.

THIS IS THE PRINCIPLE:

God hates an unbalanced scale yet He unbalanced the scale by causing Adam to sin. HE killed men by laying the ground work. HE then proceeded to make men sin thereafter. HE caused it therefore only he could rebalance the scale. The only way that it could be done is if HE killed himself. AT that moment of his death HE then proclaimed our forgiveness. We are not at fault. We are really not at fault. There is only one little catch. We have to accept his forgiveness. Only He can cause a man to accept his forgiveness. Only God can show any man the Son. Only the Father can make you realize the the only door to the Kingdom of Heaven is through Jesus. Then from there Jesus reveals who the Father really is.

There is nothing done in Heaven or earth that God the Father has not caused.

This does not mean to blame the Father. To this I say DON'T. God will just make your life harder. Do the opposite . Worship him more. Of all the things that you should realize the one thing I believe that you should know more than anything else. In the times of trouble Praise the most High and thank Him for your troubles that they are brought to you for the purpose of purging you of unrighteousness that you may have the thing that your heart,your deepest most inner self, truly desires. A friend in the most high God who is ever faithful to you. No man or woman can give you the faithful relationship that you want but God. He is your friend whether you want him to be or not and this is also not your call. It is up to god and all things have been foreordained. Kind of Calvinistic don't you think. Maybe so but I have come to these conclusions before I ever knew anything about John Calvin.

He has been my friend; though I tried to run from him he has pursued me and stayed with me; though I ran as far as a man can run from God I could not get away from him. There was a short period in my life better than ten years ago where I said; in spite of being raised in the church' that "there is no God". That is as far away from God as you can get. And to the atheist who may read this; I do understand where you are coming from. There was no more hard core concretist than me. What I saw in front of my face was what was real. Everything else was in question or did not exist. Not that I ever said this to anyone but inside I was adamant. There was an explanation for everything. I am still right about this but a whole lot of the explanations are unexplainable. They become unprovable and not falsifiable. In other words can't be tested in laboratory conditions.

To be continued...........................

Today's update

She left out of here at 10:35 AM. At 11:05AM Jolie Marten her hair dressor calls and says she missed her 10:30 appointment. I told her she left already. She said that she was "probably running late" I said nope she should already be there. "I don't know where she is at" and that you (Mrs Martin) probably know our situation and that I didn't want to know where she was going, only that I was glad that she was getting her lying butt out of my house.

Planning

I could or should make this a long write about the strange behavior my wife began exhibiting and when they began but I am not.

We are not communicating for good reason, but I caught a glimpse of her putting a new key on her key ring. Looks like she has a new apartment already. Good. The sooner she gets out of here the better. If she is talking about something that she is doing she is lying. In the last week what few sentences we have spoken to each other she has told a multitude of confirmed(I confronted her about the truth of what she was saying) lies.

She doesn't realize that her countenance changes the tone in her voice changes her physical attitude changes. In fact all men's attitude changes depending in which spirit or vernacular they are speaking.

I have tried to tell her this but she just keeps right on lying.

On the one hand I have found her a great source of confirmation and inspiration for many of the vitriolic articles I have written over the last 5 years concerning lies and liars. However I can no longer stomach the filth that a liar living in my own household brings in.
I have tossed her plenty of pearls but she has constantly and consistently trampled on them.
I can only draw one conclusion.
I am living with an animal and this animal does not intend to put off the worldly behavior to become a person instead she intends to continue to seek out enablement. She says she wants to improve but that is just for show. She really just wants to be enabled so that she can continue her bad behavior.
Not happening in my house. I was not raised up to be an enabler. For over 7 years I worked in a county nursing facility in which about 1/2 of the residents were actually psych patients from an old nut bin. The training was to not enable their current psychosis. By the way that also means I will not convenience societies current psychosis either.

Now to me. I have had to look myself in the mirror carefully and ask myself why in the hell am I attracting only the nut burgers.

As I said before I figured it out and because of this I have decided that there can not be any more relationships for me. When she leaves I should also take the cue and move as well as changing my phone number. I am sucker when it comes to taking a woman back and this one would probably seek me out. I want to cut off that possibility so that when and or if she tries to come back she won't be able to readily find me.

She has already been to one of our pastors seeking some kind of help. She asked me if I would go to see him. I have to honestly consider this and am; but my inclination is to also leave this church for another so that my decision can not be influenced by the second guessing of others who do not know the whole story.

Have I been angry about the duplicitous behavior of my wife? Of course. Who wouldn't be? I just refuse to have it constantly in my face anymore. I am not as a rule an angry man and constant anger over societies duplicitousness is more than enough for me to handle. I also do not want to have to deal with it in my own home. I need to find rest, peace, and solitude like any other human. A place to recharge the batteries for my shields so to speak, but to come home to a wife who forces me to try and maintain bearing under the stress of the lies that she is constantly offering up?.... no one man can tolerate such a situation.

If my wife were an example of America then America is in deep s**t. America has become bi-polar.

Discredited

Parable about low living:

If they discredit someone of low means they discredit themselves.

Explanation:

If people of high means go about the expense of discrediting someone of a lowly life then they spend monies they cannot justify therefore bringing into question the trust that the public previously found in them without which they would not be living the high means they currently live.

In other words if they purposely seek to destroy a bum they destroy themselves. For who would invest money into some one or group who so foolishly spends money.

Another HMMM.

In a moment of uncontrolled curiosity this morning at about 10 AM I asked my wife where she was going so all dressed up.

She says "I am going to a bible study they have at the church in the morning".

It dawns on me at 11:30 AM did I see her carrying her BIBLE out the door with her?

So I went into her bedroom and lo and behold there it is. Her bible. NOPE she is not at a bible study.

HMMMMMM.

Little more news.

She takes a shower habitually. In the last two days she has taken none. She is taking a shower somewhere else.

Another tidbit to go HMMMM over.